Breathe

September 18, 2009

I thought today I would try to explain my feelings about the Victor Martinez trade. As I mentioned before I am mostly over the disappointment but it still makes me very sad sometimes. Victor really was the heart and soul of this team. He was the type of player who would have accepted a paycut to stay with the Indians forever. And his dedication showed in how he played. Earlier this season he did somethings that I did now agree with but I forgave him and by the time the Trade (as I call it) happened I had pretty much forgotten. The surprising about this trade for me was that Victor was not even one of my top three favorite players on the Indians but I was devastated when they traded him. I mean devastated. I cried as hard as I cry at the end of Finding Neverland. I made a Victor playlist on iTunes. I figured when I could get through the playlist without tearing up I would be mostly over it. That took until about the middle of August and I still can’t watch the interview Victor gave the day he left. And his son’s hopeful question the morning of the Trade still chokes me up: “Daddy are we still Indians?” One song on that playlist in particular describes my feelings pretty well.

Breathe- Taylor Swift (by the way, Kanye is a jerk, okay moving on)

I see your face in my mind as I drive away

Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way

People are people and sometimes we change our minds

But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time

I don’t think anyone could have told you that Victor would be traded this year when the year started. But as the season got worse and it became clearer and clearer that the Indians were not going to the playoffs this year the Front Office realized that this was probably the best time to trade their aging catcher and get something really good for him. Especially with Carlos Santana in the minors Victor did not really have a place with this team in the future for what he deserved to be paid.

Music starts playing lie the end of a sad movie

It’s the kind of ending you don’t really want to see

Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down

Now I don’t what to be without you around.

At first it was very hard to imagine what the team would be without Victor. He embodied this team, it took a long time for me to accept that he was gone and not coming back.

And we know it’s never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand

I do not think the Front Office would tell you it was easy for them to make this trade and I do not think that would a PR lie either. Victor meant a lot to the organization as a whole and trading him was probably ne of the hardest moves Shapiro has had to make.

And I can’t breathe without you 

But I have to

Breathe without you but I have to

Never wanted this never want to see you hurt

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve

But people are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out

Nothing we say is going to save us from the fallout

Victor’s interview upon leaving was very sad and emotional. I have not watched it but I know he was very upset about leaving, so upset he was fighting back tears. Unfortunately he could not stay in Cleveland.

And we know it’s never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand

It’s two AM feeling like I just lost a friend

I hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me.

It’s two AM feeling like I just lost a friend

I hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me.

Written by mlblogsclemsongirlbaseball Posted in Dailies Tagged with Cleveland Indians, Victor Martinez